A day of firsts

Today has started out with a few firsts which bare advertising to the world. We finished up our watermelon from last week that weighed 30 pounds, so Roger picked the next one that was ready. It weighed 35 pounds! Amazing. We had to divide it in half to fit it into the fridge.

Then, after I finished 45 minutes of weeding, I weighed, and there was a 0 after the 2. I realize this still sounds horrendous to all the skinnies out there, but for me, it was truly momentous. I cannot remember the last time my weight was under 210 pounds. While I still have a ways to go, I am beginning to comprehend in my head that it is possible. It is a lot more logical for me to think of losing the fat when I realize it is the result of a toxic overload. As the toxins stop being taken in, the body is able to release those that have been stored. I think the world view of fat is that it is a result of fat being eaten whose excess is stored. We don't store excess protein as protein nor excess carbs as carbs. All excesses are toxins and the body struggles to get rid of them. As we reduce the number of ways that is possible, or when the volume of toxins is more than the body can handle in one "dumping", the body shelves them until we give it a chance to eliminate them. Every once in a while the body will do some major housecleaning, and we call this "the flu" or a cold. Of course, serious overloads result in more serious disease as organs such as the pancreas and adrenals (diabetes) are affected, heart disease, cancer. These are the results when there are no more shelves.

I'm sure I'm oversimplifying here, but it helps me to envision it this way, and so I am able to meditate about releasing toxins and toxic overloads in the form of fat, and letting go of them. I'm sure that as long as I have had them, my body has adjusted to them in a way. It's not sure if it is safe to let them go. I think meditating has helped me to convince it to do so (as silly as that may sound). I tend to be a pretty unrelaxed person, so this helps me in other ways as well. It gives me a wonderful healing feeling.